the most year of my life

to "18 they/them"

i like your tattoos. you're very photogenic. we should get closer hmu! you've been a person i could relate specifically to in some of the most ridiculous fucking awful situations of life. you've continually existed in at least two or three different ways throughout every era of my teenage life so far. when we actually connected for real, i guess i would now turn out to be forever grateful. you're on your way up, and you're what i am. you're one of my kind. we're both like, ... eh i don't feel like spamming buzzwords, but we are the same in so many ways it's hardly even funny. seeing you succeed and making that connection is something i do not get from anyone else. it's like, oh my god that's cricket!! up there!! that's my friend!! you're not a role model to me, you're an example. you motivate me. also

i think meeting you was the best day of my life, and i'm absolutely happy with that placement. as long as i never get a grammy.

to cam:

i do not deserve you.

when i talk about being "made hopeful about the future" you're one of the first 2 or 3 things that come to mind instantly. i like to talk to you first whenever a really important advancement is made in my life because i see the act of getting better as the act of being a little more like you.

you do so many amazing things and yet you're still always there. you treat me with such compassion, admiration, warm welcoming energy, it makes me want to do the same to others. it makes me want to return the favour, continue the cycle.

on a really fucking unfiltered honest note, i would NOT be here today without you. take that as you will, i hate to break people's smiles.

what i would do if i saw you irl:

to the cunt

...

it's only the beginning of something wonderful. i value and appreciate your presence more than anything. i don't know how to really put it into words i'm sorry

what i would do if i saw you irl:

to river:

irreplaceable part of my life

i take you for granted

why haven't we linked yet

unrelated: keep improving musically at this rate and you'll surpass a lot of people

unrelated: you're beautiful

to fubu:

let's smoke please

i trust you more to take care of me than i trust my parents to

let's go shooting together?

if i was crying, and we were with friends, you would probably tend to me instantly

to the hawaiian:

what haven't we been through this year?

the future is in your favour

i love you

HARK HARK! for the moon will look down once again! Open your eyes my children, for he too will open his own! billions of souls torn to shreds and glued back together to amalgamate in one, balanced being! The world will see peace again, blood will rain, bone will grind to dust, but humanities wrongdoings and past will be renewed

to jae:

you are a beacon to my dirt hut of a life. you're in your twenties and i'm almost sure you're probably sad all the time like me, but when i talk to you, you are just the biggest fucking-just-like this like, ORB of sunshine and smiles. you are amazing. our future as friends will be undeniably magical.

what i would do if i saw you irl:

to euphee:

let's fucking work. let's make it happen. literally no better duo than us aside from me and jae.

what i would do if i saw you irl:

to luci:

you've helped me heal from some things i would not wish upon my worst enemy. you've given me clarity. you're always there. can we be sisters canonically? can we just start saying that now? i'm serious. it would be a cool inside joke

what i would do if i saw you irl:

to miles:

I DONT TALKJ TO YOU ENOUGH ANYMORE

WE GO SO FAR BACK

WAY FURTHER BACK THAN LIKE ANYONE ELSE EITHER OF US ARE FRIENDS WITH AND ITS SO CRAZY

i love how we both love vintage samples

also also also you are gtoing to bring the 90s back to dubstep i love you

what i would do if i saw you irl: 


and to kim, of flood dubs gaming, holy shyit i love you dude i can just look at my dms list and see that ur online and hten i hit u up  if im feeling indescribable dread  and then u respond within 3 seconds and we talk about something and i just feel so at home and i  honestly fuck dude i am so fucking grateful for you and like cam and luci and shit  and youre funny also lets work